30 things about me!

1. I love God and my family to Death!
2. I have one Brother and three sisters.....Do not panic...the other sis is in Kenya....thats why you haven't met her yet! Yes, am an Aunty...I have a niece..that I havent met yet :(
3. I am addicted to chocolate (especially white chocolate) and French fries.
4. I am extremely loving and caring..but DO NOT, mistake my kindness for a weakness.
5.I am a nerd and a geek. ( Be nice to nerds , you might work for them one day). I love science..especially Biology and Physics!
6. I am 5'6"
7.I believe in karma
8. I broke my Arm when I was in Third grade....some bully pushed me off the swing!
9. I was born in Kenya. on Sunday, November 2nd, 1986. in Eldoret to be exact...but Was raised in Nairobi and Kakamega. (shout out to all those that lived in Lavington estate...best place in Nairobi for shizzle! ) AND am half cast( my parents are from different tribes) Hence am the BEST of both worlds :)
10. I am not a Morning Person.
11. I graduated from highschool when I was 16.
12. I love red Roses....but I prefer Lillies and carnations. ( thats hint for you fellas..lol)
13. My favorite Color is Purple...It changes every year though, Maybe next year it will be Yellow.
14. I love Jeans...especially from EXPRESS
15.I am a registered Bone Marrow Donor...I cant wait for the day I will actually donate Bone marrow
17. I love to cook
18. I love unconditionally. My husband will actually be the luckiest man alive. am not conceited, am just a CONFIDENT BLACK WOMAN. It takes atleast 6 months to really know me! But I have ALOT to offer..
19. I have a serious allergic reaction to drama, Bulls**t, ignorance, lack of common sense, dumbness  and stupidity.
20. I hate fakeness and lies...No one was made in china. Keep it real. Love me, or walk out of my life and please DONT forget to shut the door. Think am trippin? TIE MY SHOE LACES
21. I Want to become a Clinical pharmacist, But am also hoping to get accepted into the PharmD/ Phd dual program ...YEAH!!!..8 years of school baby!! but hmmm that Phd sure sounds yummy. If I do get a Phd..I will most likey end up doing drug formualtion and reserach for a MAJOR pharmaceutical company. I also wanna do a post graduate residency in either cardiology, pediatrics or oncology and become a specialist pharmacist!
22. I tend to be overambitious sometimes.
23.I am wise and inteligent so NEVER insult my intelligence or Play with my emotions! You will find yourself in the trash can and wonder what happenned.
24. My nickname is  Maserati.....Linda Rebbeca Juma are my names. I have a middle name that starts with M but I only tell it to those that matter. people call me Lynn (short for Linda). Only ONE person calls me Becky (short for Rebecca)...my highschool best friend used to call me Rebbie.
25. I am a runner. MARATHONS ARE MY LIFE!!
26.English was and still is my favorite subject. Hence the reason I tend to use big words in conversations sometimes!
27. I love music....I almost became a music major.
28. I love to travel
29. I want to get married when am 27....hopefully. Prince Charming is on his way but he just got lost and refused to ask for directions. Am not worried, he will find his way to me and we will live Happily Ever after. I hope to be a mommy someday! 2 of my own and then do on an adoption rampant! Angelina Jolie has NOTHING on me! I will adopt 2 soccer TEAMS from EVERY CONTINENT!! now that will be a TRUE international family.
30. I DO NOT DRINK!!!! and DO NOT INTEND TO.

P.S..this is just a summary of who I am. THE LIST GOES ON AND ON AND ON!!!!!!!!

Song of the Day : Lil waybe ft Drake Right above it. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3Fo9akQvsNI.

Its a wrap!!!!!

Its 10:12 p.m. on a Sunday night. I've opted not to go out just because I do not want to! I spent most of my day "out there" and I just want to relax. What else have I opted NOT to do? STUDY!!!! why????? Because I will do plenty of that this whole coming week. I'm nibbling on Lindt Swiss Chocolate (yummmmmmyyyyy), and sipping on Passion fruit juice. I'm also craving for fried chicken but since I no longer want my hips to be any wider...am curvy enough..I opted to have salad for dinner instead....aaawwww isn't that just amazing???..yeah whatever. Speaking of food.....you have got to try this place out: its called cafe Istanbul...its a Turkish reastaurant. The food is GREAT!!! infact Great is an understatement. Authentic, Turkish food at its best. There is a new one at the shops at legacy in plano (If you live in the DFW area) and theres one in Dallas...check it out!!!! I love trying out food from different countries so might as well join this bandwagon!!

AUGUST!!! what a month!!! the BEST thing that happened this month was my Mommy's birthday!!! Brup! brup!! That girl is getting younger each year! :) LOL. Other than that its been quite an interesting adventure! Lots of changes in my so called life! And oh..ofcourse my siblings are catching up with me! My Brother is now in 9th grade..unbelievable....He was just 2 the other day!! ugghh and my sisters are in 5th grade! now thats  what I call KIDS GROWING LIKE WEEDS!!....school for me is great so far but I've also had my own setbacks! I feel like I have worked sooooo hard and now that am this close to going to Pharmacy school..everything is falling apart; AND THATS HOW THE COOKIE CRUMBLES!!! Good news is am not about to give up and Will not give up. Will just take everyday at a time and see where God leads me. YES I said God. Am one of those Strong God believers! I trust in Him, I depend on Him, I call upon Him, I Cry to Him..ok you get the point. HE is the focal centerpiece in my life.  I know lately I haven't really been paying attention to my spiritual life but am making a new commitment.

ALL I want in my life right now is to do What God wants me to do. I Want to be an example to Eveyone around me and I want my actions to be acts of kindness, love and respect. I've come to realize that if you focus too much on who does what to you, you will end up going insane. This is what you do...Love those that love you, and pray for those that DO NOT LOVE YOU ( notice I didnt use the word enemies coz thats a strong word).Do not worry about who says what..you really cannot and will not control what people think or say about you. Above all..know who your true friends are. When things are great, everyone will be around you. Dude and Dudette..do not be fooled. The true test comes when you are going through a hard time. your true friends will be crying with you..and the fake ones?..they will NOWHERE to be seen. Let me just clarify something...I really Do not want anyone to help me with my situation. sometimes all I want is just someone to talk to, and someone to tell me its gonna be alright. SO if you CANNOT be with me in my worst times, then you sure as heck DO NOT DESERVE MY BEST. But hold your horses...what would Jesus do? YEP YEP!! HOLLA!!! see am still gonna be there for you even when I know deep down you are the fakest friend I have ever had. Thats me! I forgive! I cry, build a bridge, and get over it!!
So, to ALL my Family....I LOVE YOU ALL! am pretty much pudding with no sugar without you guys!! TO all my "TRUE FRIENDS"...you guys are just amazing! No words can decribe how much I appreciate you; and Finally To ALL THE FAKE PEOPLE IN MY LIFE...I love you too. without your fakeness, I would not know who is real and who is not. But I have nothing against you. I still love everyone in my life more than a fat kid loves food!

September is almost here!! new month, new attitude, new swagga! NO DRAMA ( am allergic to B.S). ...If you need a friend, or a shoulder to cry on...HOLLA AT YOUR GIRL MASERATI!! I sure will be more than willing to be there for you (within reason). The coolest thing : I will begin training for my half-marathon (yes 13.1 miles) , which I will be running in December to help benefit Texas scottish Rite Children's Hospital ( Did I mention I love Charity events?).

sidenote : 42 days till Grandpa arrives from Kenya!!! am sooooo excited!! its been 5 years man!!!! Come on Now!! We are READY FOR YOU!!!!! The day he arrives..I will officially become a big kid..the spoiling begins again. either way..I wove you vewy much gwandpa!!! (baby talk).

P.S. Organic chemistry II is killing me Man. I mean like seriously....the price am paying to get that Doctor of pharmacy degree and Wear that Pharmacist coat is NOT FUNNY!!!! but whoa!!! that six figure starting salary keeps me going like an energizer bunny.

Song of the day : Usher ft Jay-Z -"Hot Tottie" -------hot, hot, hot song!!! ha..actually SOMEONE told me they needed a hot toddy....*wink, wink*......ok people DO NOT jump into conclusions or assume anything. If you are in doubt about what am talking about just ASK. ....I wonder if am the hot toddy this person was referring to...oh Well.....bahahahahahahahahaahahahahahaha.

Life's Obscurity

Some call it a humbling experience, some call it "hard times", and some just have no clue what it is. Yep! am talking about that moment in your life when EVERYTHING goes wrong, the present is filled with nothing but stress, sorrow, brooding, frustration, and your future is Faint and obscure. You cry like a baby, you scream, you skip meals or if you are like me....you spend hours at the gym kickboxing (my therapy) or doing some crazy workout just to ease that pain. Ok you get the picture now. We all go through this; thats why its called LIFE!

So last saturday I had the priviledge of taking my PCAT exam...WHOA!! I definitely needed a shock absorber. 5 hrs of pure agony. Its basically a test of your knowledge and mental endurance. All I can say is am glad Am done with it but the waiting period for my results is killing me inside. I have worked sooooo hard toward going to pharmacy school and am one step away and everything seems to be crumbling. This month has been tough...If it wasn't for the Grace of God I would be.....Never mind. I almost gave up but Part of me is telling me this is just one obstacle I have to overcome.

yep! they say I look like mommy:)
or should i say..I got it from my mama!

First day of school for me was Yesterday...GOSH! ORGANIC CHEMISTRY IS NO JOKE!!!. I do not mean to scare any future pre-pharmacy /pre-meds out there but this stuff is hardcore and if you DO NOT GET YOUR SERIOUS ATTITUDE ON then...you will FAIL. so yeah I have to give 110%. Its going to be a rough ride this semester because my mind has to process a million things at the same time and its not cute at all. But I will somehow manage.
P.S: my Professor is Nigerian (holla!!).  Anyways....I have homework ALREADY!!!! these teachers never waste time man!

Sidenote: That extra coffee caramel Frappucinno from starbucks is the BOMB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (try it!)

Note: Please listen to Bruno mars new song..."just the way you are"...its makes me teary because its sooo sweet!!! Thats true appreciation right there!

P.S: I hurt my index finger baaadly...accidentally slammed the car door on it...ouch!!! (just incase you care..if not oh well, I dn't care either. LOL...jk)

SPecial thanks to all those people who subscribed to my blog and are sending me feedback via email. I LOVE YOU!! THANKS FOR THE SUPPORT! MMUUUAAAAAHHHHH! :)))))))

uuuhhhmmm..............

Whoa! What a crazy week!!!Lets just say I really appreciate sanity these days. I have been virtually insane the whole week. Where do I start? Well there is this thing that is worrying the daylights out of me....its called the pharmacy college Admission Test (PCAT). This is an exam like no other. Even though I studied am still not 100% confident in myself (which is very unlike me coz my confidence is usually on cloud 600). I really cannot see myself being anything other than a CLINICAL PHARMACIST!!! so its very important to me that I do well on this stupid test. Anyways, Saturday is the day of the test and I just Pray that The Man upstairs(God)sees me through. As if that is enough..NO! it gets worse...school starts on Monday and I have not even prepared myself for anything. grrrrr....WAIT AM NOT DONE YET!!...my pharmacy school applications are pending. havent even worked on my personal statement. There is Only one of me yet I have 10000 things to take care of. YIKES! and the "to-do" list goes on.....

Today was what you would call flat out boring...woke up at around...ok I won't say the time. So yeah , I woke up in the morning, Had fruit for breakfast (don't judge...just one of those mornings), then my friend Sharon picked me up so we could run a few errands, and by errands I mean.....never mind; girls will always be girls. I then came back home at around 1:30, had lunch (Taco bell) and just became LAZY. All I did was facebook like it was going out of style, Skyped with my cousins in the phillipines and ate pringles. At around 3 p.m things got juicy...I received this phonecall that actually made my day INTERESTING!! by interesting I mean...just flat out annoying. for those that don't know me...I really hate ignorance. There is a difference between lacking knowledge and just running your mouth talking rubbish. One more thing, I respect people regardless of their age, race, income,...whatever! So it really drives me crazy when people just choose to be insensitive and rude ON PURPOSE! Like my friend Eji would say..EHH CHINEKE OH! LORD HAVE MERCY OH! A GO DIE NAH!(nigerian accent). LOL, Eji is my homegirl...Nigeria is where she hails from. Man this girl is so cool and so honest its not even funny. She is like me...we both hate CRAP. for the sake of my sanity I won't discuss what the conversation was about. So anyways I thought to myself..hhmm..why not come up with a list of top 20 things that really turn you into a ticking time bomb?..not a bad idea right? ok so here we go:

TOP 20 things that I cannot stand NO MATTER WHAT:

1.Rudeness, arrogance and ignorance.

2. Insincerity

3. Manipulative people

4. Fake friendships (my oh my..I could write 100 novels about fake friendships! I hate them!)

5. Pride...Guess why Lucifer was expelled from heaven? Now you know why? good. Keep up with that Pride and see where life will take you.

6. Very Loud people ---Can you just please turn it down a notch? I can't just have ear plugs everytime am around you! JEEZ!

7. People who use facebook CONSTANLY to publicize their Private life. I swear, facebook is like getting front row seats and backstage passes to people's private life. There is no harm in telling the world about what you think is interesting in your life but come on..do we really have to know that you were wearing a pink victoria's secret bra that cost you 200 dollars? NO! uughhh CROOKS!!

9. Nagging people...NKT!

10. Mr. or Ms. Me too -- for example, "I really love bleu cheese crumbles on my salad" Really? Me too!!! especially when its melted!..uuhhmm what? Bleu cheese DOES NOT MELT!! ok?... Sighs

11. Fake christians.

12. Poor hygiene/dirtiness (gross)

13. Ego-centrics and Ego-ethnics ---Listen here, YOU ARE NOT BETTER THAN THE PERSON NEXT TO YOU!!!! we are all different individuals so please learn to just not have this "I'm better than you" attitude". Its so shady.

14.Men who dress like they just came from mining gold and silver or stealing the rainbow from the sky....sigh...why do you have to have grills in your mouth, 20 pieces of jewelry, jeans embroided with jewelry and a shirt with Shiny writings, or embroidery? then top it off with a RED belt that has a HUGE SILVER SKull as a buckle and YELLOW shoes made from alligator skin? SMH! LADIES!! You thougt you were safe right? NO. Girls that Dress like they just came out of mommy's womb really annoy the heck of out me. Its ok to dress "sexy" but whoa!!! Everything in moderation, including moderation!

15.People who curse WAY TOO MUCH!---cursing, is not cute. yeah I know sometimes we let out the occasional "WTF?" but dang..when you have someone bleeping 99% of the time then you my friend are not cool.

16. gossipers and rumor mongers! (get a hobby) and if you can't find a hobby then GO DIG GRAVES!

17.The know-it-alls...who needs a library when you could just call these people.

18.People who do not make an effort of taking care of the body God gave them.

19.Wanna-be's ---just be yourself.

20. PEOPLE WHO CONSTANTLY TRY TO PUT YOU DOWN!!

Bye for now! ♥

P.S. Horrible week =STRESS!!!...and I miss my Late grandma. I can't believe its been almost 7 years. I miss you dearly. ♥♥♥♥.

Statistics 101

No words can describe how much I love Lyfe Jennings's new song "Statistics." That song is REAL. Lyfe is one of the most underated artists I believe. If you haven't listened to this song, Please do and If you don't care then oh well. My goodness, Don't you just love the "western world"?...NO! WHY? because gone are the days when Love actually meant something. In this day and age, Almost Every song is talking about sex, drugs, one night stands, blah blah RUBBISH! On one end..ciara is talking about "Riding"...(and no its not a bike or a bus), on the other end Lil wayne is talking about bringing her to his bedroom and popping that....fill in the blank. Next you have 50 cent begging the ladies to have his baby and be a millionaire (smart right?) then of course you have Pitbull whose mission is to get you and your girl friends in his hotel room. *eyeroll* Sex has become the new candy, and now girls are perfectly ok with being called The B word. All this Bull crap makes me want to choke a kitten!!!Where am I going with this? LOVE is totally overrated these days. Infact Most people do not even know what love is. There is a fine line between loving someone and being attracted to someone. I can be attracted to you, but not love you. GET IT? YAY! KUDOS!

Ladies : Please do not be a nickel out here looking for a dime. Beware, Most guys do not mean what they say. I mean, we all know most guys are out here to have fun and get with as many chics as they can (the more they have, the better their Man-whore resume looks). Its perfectly Ok for them to have 10 girl friends at a time. But if a girl talks to more than one guy, and she is not even getting intimate with them, she is called a SLUT! Welcome to the world of double standards. Anyways, back to what I was saying...The reason most women get so bitter and angry with men is because we tend to take guys way too serious when they start feeding us with a bunch of sweet nothings. They tell us what we want to hear not what they truly mean. I call it getting an eargasm (sweet words that make your heart go yori yori). I'm not saying all men are players..but the only way you will get to know if he is real or not is to take time and know him. If you rush into things and give him what he wants way too soon...then uuhhmm..yeah He will BE GONE! If he genuinely cares about you and wants to have something special with you, then he will respect your wishes and hang around you longer. SO anyways, my best homeboy Jarell and I were talking yesterday and hmmm..he kind of opened my eyes and made me look at things in a different perspective. Jarell is like my big bro, my homie, my..oh gosh. He is cool. And of course theres my BEST GUY FRIEND KEVIN FIDEL (he keeps me in check, tells me the truth, looks out for me and is ALWAYS there when I need a shoulder to lean on). Basically from the conversation I had with Jarell, I decided to come up with My own top tips for ladies looking to be in a relationship with a GOOD man:

1.Let the man lead and all will be revealed. Let the man initiate the conversation, call you and set up the date. If you call a man for anything you are setting the precedent, and will end up doing most of the work throughout your courtship and thereafter.
DO pay close attention to his conversations. If he is taking things way too serious, when he barely knows you then something is definitely up. That's his way of making you feel all warm and toasty inside then dump you when he is done. Why would he want to marry you after knowing you for only 1 week? NO ONE MARRIES A STRANGER!!!

2.Do not sleep with a man unless you are in an exclusive relationship where he has discussed exclusivity/monogamy with you in the sober light of day. DO NOT have sex way too early : there is an exception to this rule though. Not all guys will pop your kitty and leave you but most of them will. Ladies...he will tell you anything to get you into his little sanctuary then LEAVE you! ..But wait Linda he said I'm the most beautiful woman he has ever seen and wants me to be his wife... REALLY? NO! he has seen prettier girls out there, that was just a pick up line. Tell him you are celibate and see if he is willing to wait. If he leaves then hmm you have your answer!

3. Make a top 10 non-negotiable list of the things you want in your man. Put them in priority sequence using four categories: spiritual, physical, emotional and mental. You may only have two physical quirks like hair and height on the list, but not more. Chemistry is the only thing that is a given so it does not need to be added to the list. Keep this list in your Mind at all time. If a man does not have all 10 things on your list do not step off the curb to date him no matter how handsome or rich he is. Do not compromise your values for ANY man..BETTER BELIEVE.

4. HE better be reliable....If a guy makes plans and flakes out most of the time then thats a HUGE red flag. Worst yet; if he stands you up on a date then he does not care. This is 2010..everyone has a cell phone or some sort of tech device. If he did not care to call you and cancel the date then he sure as hell DOES NOT CARE ABOUT YOU!!

5. If he is not spending quality time with you then he either has lost interest, is busy or has other girls he would rather be with. No matter how busy a guy is, if he really is into you he will make an effort to spend time with you..even if its 5 minutes!! Ok lets not be so hard on him and say he needs space...there is nothing wrong with needing space. But if he should at least then check on you and see whats up! If he just vanishes in thin air then uuhhmm..Ladies..MOVE ON!!

6. DO NOT CONSTANTLY CALL HIM...ok Yes he is cute and this and that. WE get it..you like him a lot and you really just want to hear his voice or get a text from him...please do not blow up his phone. Give him time and space. nothing spells DESPERATE than when a woman is constantly on her man's tail. Come on..even if you are dying to see or hear his voice..Play it cool. let him wonder what is going on with you and he will call and check on you. There are over 100,000 men out there..Do not be desperate. Do not be too available either!!! Let him miss you for once. Gosh!! If he is acting a little fishy and flaky then move to the next guy please. Too many fish in the sea. Go out and have fun!! do not be a psychopath waiting on a man to make you happy! NO MAN WILL MAKE YOU HAPPY!!! happiness comes from within. Sigh....

7. If he doesn't respect your feelings then he is not worth your time. Nothing annoys me than arrogant rude men with Egos so high you need a ladder to stroke them. Ok dude..we know you are Mr. "hot shot" and all the ladies have your number but that does not give you the right to mistreat and disrespect the Lady or Ladies in your life. Treat people the same way you would like to be treated.

8. Watch out for all the controlling signs. I DO NOT WANT YOU TO...What? excuse me? I only have 2 parents ok? This is not an ownership business. You are not his child, girl toy or property. Its a relationship!! yes There ought to be rules and boundaries in a relationship but not in a commanding manner. Kindly talk about what makes both of you uncomfortable.If he does not like it when you talk to Tommy then explain to him who Tommy is and what his significance in your life. Reach a consensus. If he does not understand, give him time if not then oh well. DO not Demand, Request. Just because am talking to Jarell does not mean I want to be with him ok? Keep your insecurities in your Closet. Its normal to be a little jealous but not to the point where you Trip everytime your partner is talking to someone of the opposite sex; And no but no thanks...I do want to be with your homeboys. Calm the heck down!

9. Qualify the buyer. For every four questions a man asks you, ask him one, but ask questions in a light breezy way that would show you what type of character he is. For example: where do you see yourself in five years? The family man will say married, with kids and very happy. If he asks buyer questions of you, like: do you want to get married? Answer truthfully. You may ask him less informal ones in order to see where he stands on commitment issues. A good question is: at what age do you see yourself married? Or how long do you think you should date a person before you get engaged? A man generally does not lie when asked casually as he just met you and is not so invested in the relationship yet.

10. DO NOT BE A BOOTY CALL...Girls , if he does not respect you then he will leave you! Yes, You can have Beyonce hips, and Keyshia Cole thighs ( cough cough like me!!! LOL...jk) but he will still leave you for that girl across the street that looks like a potato head. If he has no respect for you then DO NOT WASTE TIME.

11. If he is in a relationship then Why are you with him? Ok maybe he lied to you that he was single, but then you had a few whispers that he has a girl...ok listen..some rumors are true. If he cheated on her, then he will 10000000% cheat on you. Cheaters dnt just stop cheating just because they met a beautiful intelligent cool like like you. Girl, wake up and smell the coffee before you heart is broken.

12.Do not live with a man prior to marriage. It kills the romance and if the man lives rent free than, as they say, why should he buy the house? You may accept a ring and move in only if the wedding date is set, both families have met and wedding plans are in full swing.

13. Bonus: If things do not work out, then just break up and call it a day. DO not Dog your ex and say mean things about him...well, its ok because you are bitter but oh well just look at it like he put you a step closer to Mr. RIGHT. MOVE ON and let him be. And i do not believe in getting back together for a second chance...why? It did not work out the first time, so what makes you think it will work the second time? People, especially MEN do not change overnight. SO do not fall for that Rubbsih talk about baby I want you back, this, that, I promise I have changed...BULLLCRAP!!!! He will do the same S**t Again!!! Its ok to be friends...if you two agree on it.If not then oh well good riddens!! Above all..still respect your ex. If you meet in public..say hi, be cordial. Its called MATURITY! Also remember..NEVER EVER BEG A GUY TO STAY WITH YOU!

Valuable advice to my ladies : Everyday is fishing day but not everyday is catching day. Yes, You will have your heart broken, you will be cheated on, ridiculed and Played. But trust me... there is a Good MAN out there for you ok? Be patient. You will have a great catch pretty soon. That's one of my struggles as I am transitioning from young adulthood to Womanhood. I have met the Mr high egos, players, Mr intellectual, rude ones, nice ones, BAD ones. I have finally refused to go after guys that are out to hurt me. No more games. I don't need a boy.I need a Man. Someone who truly cares and loves me for Who I am, respects me and makes me his priority NOT his option.

P.S. I'd rather be alone than be with the wrong person.

Special shout out to Jarell, Kevin, Gwen, Patricia and Brittany. No words can describe how much I love you guys! You Rock!!

Side note : I am so loving the S.I.N.G.L.E life. Nothing special about it..just peaceful. I am not responsible for anyone's emotions anymore and no more worrying about details that do not even matter. SAving myself for that one Special Guy (whoever that is). Anyways, I have to rush. I have a Coffee date with my Homie/crazy good friend Brandon.

WOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOW!!!!!!!!

Its 1:21 am. Am munching on white chocolate while sipping on cranberry juice. Just finished watching a good dose of Kenyan comedy on you tube. I am also jammin' to some good old soul, Hip hop  and R n B music on my Ipod. What's playing now ? Brandy's "mr Piano man" from her latest album "I'm only human". I am the type of person who just sits down and does alot of self-reflection. why? because its a requirement. When things go wrong, I have to evaluate and think things through. This week has been what I call "eye-opening week". I had my "aha" moment. I have come to realize that we tend to beat ourselves up so much for whatever bad or negative thing that happens in our lives to the point we lose focus. Listen here, sometimes its just not your fault! take a deep breath, and relax. stop trying to be God here.  Regret is the single most Stupid and useless emotion. NEVER regret! It takes you 1000 steps backwards. Press on forwards. Good riddens!!

 Have you ever  been in a situation where Every song that comes on basically talks about the situation you are going through at the moment and you just cry your heart out, sob and use a whole box of kleenex? Just incase you didnt know, I am an emotional person. Almost everything around me is based on emotions. I love unconditionally, I forgive easliy, I respect people's feelings...all that, hence the reason I expect the same from people; and thats why emotional roller coasters are never fun! I prefer the "titan" at six flags over Texas than riding a wave of melancholy or misery. It finally hit me that for almost my whole life I have been striving on making people that I love and care about happy and yet I just neglect my own happiness. It makes my day when I leave a smile on someone's face, or when I make that person laugh, or how about when warm up a child's heart. For some reason I thought by making others happy, I would automatically be happy. *eyeroll*...doesn't work like that. The only source of your happiness is YOU! take time to reflect and work on the inner self first, find that asepct of yourself that  makes that fountain of happiness overflow. I havent found mine yet but all I know is am all smiles now. For some weird reason , I see a future so bright, I need shades.

I smile for no reason sometimes.

 #Now playing  Rihanna -Cry.

No matter what is happening right now, I still Love my life. Its not perfect or anything, but am striving everyday to reach my full potential. People come and go out of my life frequently  and each person leaves an Impact that just makes me either stronger or better each day. The people in your past are not in your future for a reason; they paved your way there. Sometimes we tend to hold on to something/someone we love and cherish so much that we do not realize its actually when we learn to let go is when we will know whether or not that person was meant to be yours or not. Its only by letting go that you will either realize what you have been  missing or what you had was really special. Do not focus so much on the closed door ; look at the Gates that are about to be opened. Life is too short to be brooding over people who only value you as an option. Get out there, have fun, Enjoy life, Live a little, Explore other options and sooner or later you will realize what the true meaning of life is.

# Now playing "In the morning" by Urban mystic---that song sends chills all over my body. It gives me goosebumps. Such a sweet beautiful song. True love right there . ( Please listen to it and google the lyrics too) hhmmmmmmmmm thats good music for my soul!!!! Lord have Mercy!

P.S..I never hold grudges : Thats like letting someone live in your brain RENT FREEE!!!!! oh heck no! the economy right now is bad so do not allow that. Or better yet, drinking poison and expecting the other person to die.

So yeah anyways, The whole point is I had an Epiphany! I finally smelt the friggin coffee and woke up!! I am still the Same though..just my thought process that has changed. I am going to allow myself to Connect spirtually with alot of people, I want to TRAVEL and see the world and Most importantly I want to be HAPPY ( am almost there).  I will continue to love, feel, rejoice, explore and LIVE!!!!!

# Now playing Life Jennings- Statistics..If there is ANY FEMALE out there who has not heard this song then please hurry up and listen to it. Pay attention to the Lyrics!!! This song is REAL!!!!!!

P.S I am trying to find a new fiction book to read so if you have any good recommendations please do not hesitate to email me!!! (lynn.maserati@gmail.com).

Now listening to "you pulled me through by Jeniffer hudson...this song makes me cry every single time I hear it. I can never make it without God.

NB: I'm now accepting chocolate donations. LOL. send me that Chocolate!!!!! I love Chocolate. (white cholocate preffered) Ok, ok, ok, calm down! Jeeezz!! am just kidding! but if you truly feel compelled to hook a sista up, hey who am I to turn down such a yummy treat?...Just saying. Do not get it Twisted.!

Its the Little things that matter

I had an Interesting day on Friday. I started my day as usual. My alarm went off at 8:00 am..Well thats Never a good thing. Lets just say I had a fight with the alarm clock. I'm not so sure who won but the clock was left on the floor with a few bruises. Hint : I am not a morning person. I took a shower, had a good healthy breakfast and left to go run a few errands. I later on Met with my good friend Amy for Lunch, then Stopped by my college to take care of a few things.By the way...those new  fruit smoothies at McDOnalds are So delicious!!!  Yep, I said it. Yes I know Mickie D's is not Jamba juice but hey who has money for Jamba juice or Keva Cafe or smoothie king all the time? Certainly not me. SO where were we? aahhh we were talking about my day. GO TRY THOSE SMOOTHIES THOUGH!!!!! ok back to where we left off.  So yeah when i was done "taking care of bussiness", I ran into my good friend Sharon, talked for a little while then decided to call it a day. Now here comes the interesting part :

As I was leaving, I found a lost wallet in the parking lot. I picked it up and since the school's lost and found office was already closed I had no way of turning it in. So I opened up the wallet and the first thing I saw was the Owner's driver's License. I found his address, mapped it on my phone and realized it was only 20 minutes from my house. I first went home, then Decided to drive to this Guy's house to drop off his wallet. The sad part was when I got there He wasnt home. I definitely did not want to drive back with it so I left it as his doorstep with a note describing how I found his wallet..yadda, yadda. I also included my name and email address ( Just incase he wanted to thank me or had any questions). Well lets just say I have new Friend now. His name is Corey!!!! He Sent me an email today thanking me very much for returning his wallet to him. He went ahead and said I really left a positive impact on his life because not many people will do such an act. So what do you call this? INTEGRITY!!!  Integrity is doing the right thing at all times even when no one is watching. I do not mean to blow my trumpet or anything but sometimes its the little things that we do that really make a difference.

Where am I going with this? well...hold your horses people. I'm trying to make a point. My point is EVERYTHING we do has consequesnces (good or bad). You do not have to donate a million dollars to charity to make a difference, Heck I do not even have....Ok yeah am not Rich. If you see a friend in need, Give them a hug, send them a card, flowers or a note saying you are thinking about them. Always be nice to people....Ok within reason because some people can really turn you into a human door mat if you are not careful.

Its not Always about you! Think about the person next to you. Always do the right thing.  I am not asking you to be mother Teresa, But I can tell you this...you will attract more bees with honey than with vinegar. People always remember what you did for them. Every encounter you make, leaves an impact. Be the Change you want to see. and DO not expect people to be nice to you If you can't even do single good Deed.  By the way, just to let you know; Tit for Tat is a game for toddlers and immature people. NOOBS are the only people that  play that silly game of eye for an eye. Come on!!! so if someone offends you, you offend them back? NO! I mean if you do then that makes you exactly like them right? How will people tell the difference? Now am not telling you to just sit there and let people turn you into a playground! All am saying is Be kind. Your life may be the only Bible some people read. ~Author Unknown God bless you!!!!!

Sidenote: Isn't it like too hot? I mean seriously, If Texas is any indication of how hot hell will be then I better work on my relationship with Jesus christ because I want to make it to Heaven; I bet its Air conditioned up there. I know we are all sinnerholics and maybe this is God's way of punishing us but hey, I thought when Adam and Eve sinned , God already gave us the ultimate punishment. ugghh I gotta have a chat with Eve because this girl did not have to eat that Fruit!! there were way too many fruits in that garden!! Maybe this has nothing to do with sin. I think Al Gore is right. Global warming is a serious issue. Anyways...who cares? Winter is almost here.


P.S. I just had a  brownie with frozen yoghurt....yummmy!!! I am totally chocolate wasted!! I love chocolate.

Crawl before you walk !

This is the beginning of a journey..a journey into the world of a lady with a young spirit and an old soul. Who is this Lady? Its ME!!! My Name is Linda...mostly known as Lynn. Kenya is where I call home. If I could describe myself in one word, I would say am unique. I do believe and Trust in God : Just thought I would make that known. I have one amazing brother, three beautiful sisters, numerous Aunties and Uncles and about a whole nation of cousins. Family means everything to me. I tend to be overambitious sometimes but hey thats a good thing right? When asked what I love I usually say Science and Music. Yes I have a potential of being nerdy. I'm not really the creative type, hence the reason I'm a science major (Pre-pharmacy to be exact). I mean why do I have to know what  was on Picasso's mind while painting? Or even Try to figure out Why Romeo's love for Juliet was so intriguing? Like seriously? That stuff makes my head hurt. Just give me facts ;thats why I love Science. In four years I will be a certified drug dealer (Pharmacist). Do not  Freak out....I will be the good drug dealer, you know the kind that says hey do you need some acetaminophen ( tylenol)? get the picture? GOOD! You know I could go on and on about me, but hey as time goes, You will get to know more about me.

 Sidenote :  Hey, Wasn't I just adorable as a kid? Well, whether or not you agree with me I think I was as cute as button!! aawwwwwww.* sigh* 

 So what made me start blogging? hhhmmmm, "If some one can do it.. you can learn to do it too - Anthony Robbins"...thats one of my favorite quotes. Instead of keeping a journal, I decided I wanted to share my thought, experiences, personal life, milestones, e.t.c with the world. Basically I will be talking about my day to day life, and issues that face young women in today's soceity.  Please feel free to leave comments, ideas, suggestions. Do not forget to be respectful and mindful. Internet ettiquette is important as well. Well.. since this is my first time blogging, be patient with me. Thats why the title of today's post was crawl before you walk.

Welcome to my world people!!!

P.S. I have been told by almost everyone I come across that I am very Intelligent. I thank God for that Everyday! And I also tend to be overly sarcastic sometimes! ( Blame it on the apple juice).